Cream of mushroom spaghetti for lunch t'day. Somehow, it seems uncooked to me:/

So the day has arrived . 18 november 2009 . Atikah Goh's secondary school prom night . Ever since I stepped into this school, I've been waiting for this day . However , if you want my honesty now, I'm not quite looking forward to it. I've been complaining to Xinyu , Rebecca & YanJun how terrible , worried & scared I feel . Honestly, you've no idea . Sorry darlings if I caused trouble&thanks for standing by(:

1:30PM -3PM  
HAIRSTYLING
While the table tennis peeps are busy training their asses off at school, I'm busy doing my hair at the hair salon . Xinyu was here with me for 30 minutes then she lef for training . I ain't no expert of hair . Not even 1/2 girly . (I think) I didn't really know what to do with my hair so I decided to do something different . As someone said "All the hot girls are gonna let thier hair down" I decided to be different . I decided to put up my hair and stick to classy-ness(if there is even a word for it) . I wanted a French twist but there said that it was too mature for my age . So they said they'll do something else but still put my hair up. The male hairstylist is really nice . I was having trouble speaking mandrin . It has been ages that I spoke Chinese . I think the hairstylist who did my hair was the boss or manager or something like that . Late 30s . Everyone who comes into the shop greets him . & he is trying to attend to all his customers . He is a semi fan of air supply & earth wind and fire . Cool guy. 

Anyway the shop is really cool and overly decorated . I like the shop(: it's so beautiful. 
Did I mention that I might have to pee while doing my hair?
Dang.

So they're currently thong-ing my hair . I'm worried of how I'll look tonight . It somehow feels like I don't know how to speak anymore . With perfection of hair , make-up and dress, (I'm not exactly pretty to begin with ) can someone be so diffident bout prom? I think with a big huge mirror in front of me I should try to exercise my smiling muscle . (shows off my teeth and the hairstylist prolly thinks I'm weird)

3:30PM-
(well it was supposed to be 3:30PM) MAKE-UP
I waited an hour for the make up artist, she never showed . I dialled her number couple of times she said she got her other customers and I mixed up 'cause her other customer's name was "Atikah" too. 
WHATEVER
Thankfully my sister in law was here to save me . She helped me with my make up. 
Amount spent? $0 and earned? Bonds grew stronger(: 
Xinyu dropped by around 4 and left at 5PM cause it was raining and she had a class BBQ to attend to. 

7:00PM - Met CK at Intercontinental hotel . 
To be honest, I had a blast at prom. The food was great.  Atmosphere was great . I was happy to meet evryone (again) . The performances were awesome especially sam's one . Everyone looked spectacular ! However, my emotions brought me down . 

I don't regret going to prom. I don't regret it just because I got hurt . I was glad . I'm proud of myself, for someone who isn't quite as much girly, I must say I carried myself well. Although i didnt get the opportunity to take photos with someone that i badly wanted to, i took photos with loads of other peeps . I'll skip the part on some of the comments I got for that night(: Sure I got hurt but I'm glad that Atikah Goh had the courage to face it . The courage to face my fear and the pain. &Atikah Goh just offically attended her first ever prom(: 

&Xinyu, Reb, YJ
(L) YOU & GOD BLESS YOU. Thanks so much for standing by. With you all, I feel so much stronger . 

I'm sure you're not reading this . Why on earth will you? 
But, just for the reccord , you look.. Great at prom. 
(L) YOU. 
      

It's 5:47am and I'm still awake . Aren't I supposed to be sleeping ? Well I did sleep a little . That's the reason why I feel so much better now.
I know I shouldn't let the cat out of the bag, but it's alright. I'll say it anyway . 

My fringe, is scerewed . (substitute out the "F") 
It is really screwed and I've nothing to do bout it and heyhey prom's tommorrow . What am I going to do?!
Initially, I told my dad to cut my fringe on Sunday but.. My family and I took turns to get on his nerves. It dragged and dragged till last night . So I got my hair cut last night . The result was : really short fringe , above the eyebrown , hardly straight . 1word . "fugly" . I did think he cut it that way on purpose, prolly for me making him angry the last few days back . But it's okay . If I didn't sleep a wink I'd probably be blaming my dad by now . However I've decided, it's my prom . What is done, is done . So no point harping on it . I guess I needed alternatives .

To be honest. 
When I found out how ugly my fringe was, yes I did cry , but I felt that I needed that...warmth , that hug you used to give even if you weren't next to me .
&i haven't felt that way for so long;

So what other alternatives do I have? 
Straightening my fringe on that day might make it look better ? Or the best , bringe my fringe to the back?
Tough choice, either way, I'll look stupid. 

Alright. I better TRY to get some sleep . I still have a manicure session tommorow wit xinyu . 
& to those who consoled me , tyvm (thankyouverymuch)